Lately I have been feeling out of sorts. Not myself when it comes to my creativity. I am feeling, well, not very creative.
No, no let me rephrase that.
I am feeling creative yet unable to put my thoughts into my projects.
I want to create. I look around at all my stuff...you know the stuff that makes your heart race. The paper, the glue, the paint, the stickers and rub-ons. The buttons and flowers and little bits of this and that. My big bin of rubber stamps with words and butterflies and birds.
I see it all. I go to my studio. I gather a few things then...nothing. Or I'll have something but something that is so juvenile looking I would never share it with any of you. Never. Ever.
“The creative mind plays with the object it loves” Carl Gustav Jung
I love paper and pens and words. I use sunshines and butterflies in my work and words. It always goes back to words. Whether I'm writing or creating a scrapbook page or art journal...it's all about the words.
“A creative man is motivated by the desire to achieve, not by the desire to beat others” Ayn Rand quotes
When it comes right down to it I must stop comparing myself to everyone else. There are sooo many amazingly talented Bloggers out there who create these masterpieces. Lately I find myself comparing where I am creatively to these women. This is not good.
Not only have I felt inadequate in my artsy stuff but my writing has suffered. My ideas have been stagnant. I haven't been learning and growing and inspiring.
That's not a place I want to be.
“Creative activity could be described as a type of learning process where teacher and pupil are located in the same individual.” Arthur Koestler
So, I am here, being honest with you and myself. Realizing that even though I don't create those one of a kind collages that are publication worthy and my paintings resemble those of a kindergartner...I am just a pupil. Trying my best to find my own Van Gogh. I know an artist lives within me. I just haven't found her yet.
“There is only one of you in all time, this expression is unique. And if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and it will be lost.” — Martha Graham
How about you? What do you feel about your creative work? How do you get through the rough times? I would love to know!!