Smile, even when you're trying not to cry and the tears are blurring your vision.
Sing, even when people stare at you and tell you your voice is crappy.
Trust, even when your heart begs you not to.
Twirl, even when your mind makes no sense of what you see.
Frolick, even when you are made fun of. Kiss, even when others are watching. Sleep, even when you're afraid of what the dreams might bring.
Run, even when it feels like you can't run any more.
And, always, remember, even when the memories pinch your heart. Because the pain of all your experience is what makes you the person you are now. And without your experience---you are an empty page, a blank notebook, a missing lyric. What makes you brave is your willingness to live through your terrible life and hold your head up high the next day. So don't live life in fear. Because you are stronger now, after all the crap has happened, than you ever were back before it started.”
― Alysha Speer
Last week I shared my heart with you. I told you how I was READY for a new outlook on life...a new way of living with intention and love and heart. Yes, I have been through so much and yes life will never ever be all sunshine and lollipops. I will continue to go through trials and sadness...but life was meant to be lived in spite of those trials...in spite of how hard it may be. Like the quote above says...
"Don't live life in fear. “Laugh, even when you feel too sick or too worn out or tired.
Smile, even when you're trying not to cry and the tears are blurring your vision. You are stronger now than you ever were back before it started."
I AM stronger now and my eyes are open. I want to LIVE not merely go through.
It was destiny then when my Soul School Class came in the mail on Saturday. Soul School was created by one of the most amazing people I know Melody Ross...and the fact that this months lesson is all about finding out what's trapping our heart so we can fly free...well, it was meant to be. I was trying to figure out what to call my 100 Day journey and Saturday, when I opened my Soul School box I knew...
"100 Days of Flying Free"
As soon as I opened the box and sifted through all the gorgeous papers, artwork and beautiful, soulful sayings I came across the Journaling Prompts...my heart knew this is what I needed to begin my journey!! So I curled up on my couch Sunday morning and began writing...sorting out my thoughts and feelings, really listening to what my heart was saying, not just writing down what I thought was the "right" answer. There are 20 questions in all and I am not even close to being done...I am taking my time...pondering each question.
One of the first questions I answered was "What has clipped my wings throughout life? How about recently?" WOW. As soon as I read that I KNEW what to write and so I began...slowly at first, searching for the words...but then, my heart just took over and I wrote faster and faster...page after page...I didn't even know what I was writing...my heart had taken over. When I stopped I looked at my page...I just kept nodding my head up and down..."yes, yes those things...those things stopped me from flying. Those things are what hurt my soul so deeply and made me feel like I couldn't be who I really am...those are the things I need to break free from in order to fly free."
So here I am...going on this 100 day journey. I know I have lots of soul work to do. In order to really focus on me there are other things in my life I will work on...stuff my soul needs to feel my best...
*clean, healthy foods
*lots of water
*time with my family
*time with my scriptures
*less social media and phone games
*less worrying about those things I can't control
*daily studio time
Today my journey begins.
Today I am striving to just let go. Not fuss over the house so much (this is a biggie for me and one of my main stresses).
It's afternoon and I have my jammies on. There is laundry to be done, beds to make, my daughter's room to finish (we are in makeover mode) and so many other things. But today I chose to write my blog, to spend some quiet, thoughtful time in my studio FIRST. That is pretty huge for me and something I hope to do more and more.
If you want to join me on your OWN Flying Free journey I would LOVE it. Heck, you don't even have to call it Flying Free...you pick what's best for YOU. Just listen to your heart...it knows:)
I leave you today with something to think about...
“Because fear kills everything," Mo had once told her. "Your mind, your heart, your imagination.”
― Cornelia Funke, Inkheart
― Cornelia Funke, Inkheart
Don't let fear kill you. Squash your dreams. Create a place for yourself where you can be comfortable...where you can be you.
Girls, we get one life. One precious life.
It's time to live it.
PS...I will checking in at least on a weekly basis (maybe more some weeks). I want to keep a record for myself on how much I grow/learn/do. I encourage you to share here, on your blogs and our facebook group your journey.