I was overweight most of my childhood, did not participate in
any kinds of sports, was always picked last for
gym class and had the self-esteem of Charlie Brown.
I didn't feel like people believed in me so I didn't believe in myself.
In spite of all my insecurities I became quite successful with my high school speech team, was president of FBLA and landed all the leads in my high school play. Heck I even
landed the child lead in a traveling production my Sophomore year.
Acting gave me confidence like I had never known.
I wasn't happy with
I constantly obsessed about my weight...
I never felt good enough.
When my Dad was dying in June 1996 I made him and ME a promise.
I was going to set a goal and RUN a marathon and dedicate it to HIM.
I had never ran a day in my life.
Not only did I REACH my goal...but I raised $4,000 dollars for the Leukemia Society...the awful disease that took my father from me...and I gained respect for MYSELF. I had a confidence I had
never known in MYSELF.
It was a beautiful thing.
|At the finish line in 1999. I ran the Mayor's Midnight Sun in Anchorage, Alaska.|
But somewhere along the line
I have lost my way.
The confidence I once knew has gone.
I find myself self-conscious and fixated on my body flaws.
When I look in the mirror I see an aging, frumpy-looking woman.
I FEEL like an aging, frumpy-looking woman!
But that's changing...
slowly, but surely.
And it feels so good.
This quote is such a wonderful reminder for me...
when I was training for my first marathon (i have ran two)...
I never, ever focused on the finish line.
I took each day and focused on the run THAT DAY.
It was a powerful thing to see myself grow stronger and stronger each day.
And it can be today.
If you have lost your way...
If you feel bad about yourself...
where you are in your fitness life I have the book for YOU!
I have followed Tosca for over 10 years. She is AMAZING!!
This book is life-changing in soooo many ways! She shares HER journey and the
way she went about getting back in shape in her 40's is nothing less than motivational and inspirational!
I turn 50 this year.
It is my intention to set a goal, make a plan, get to work, stick to it and
REACH MY GOAL!
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